Staying at Home

When I was born, my parents owned their own small business.  My mom brought me with her to work.  Then she stayed home full time.  Then, after we were in school, she worked part time.  Then, she worked full time.

I made it clear to Husband before we were married, that I hoped to stay home with my children one day at least for a little while.  He completely supported that decision.

In the last few years, my husband has often told me, usually after I had had a particularly good day at school or an emotionally trying one, that he didn't think I could do it.  "There's no way you can walk away from this," he would say, "You love it too much.  You're too good at it."

I DO love it.  A HUGE part of me is in serious denial that I have less than 30 work days as a teacher left.  But I am confident in my decision.  I think it will be what is best for our family at this point in our lives.  Where will we be in 5 years or 10 years or 20 years?  I have no idea.

People have told me it was a waste to get a degree and then quit working and stay home.  I disagree, but I'm ok if you think that too.  People have told me I have no business quitting in the middle of the year.  Honestly, a big part of me agrees, but again, I'm trying to make the decision that's best for my family.  People have told me I'll be back in August.  I disagree, but I really can't say for sure.  People have told me their own decision to stay home or their own decision to continue working was the best decision they ever made.  I hope that I am making the best decision for my family too, but I know I can always change my mind.  This is a season.  There will always be a chance to change and grow as the seasons change.